I have managed to make it through yet another week of top notch stress! Again, I find myself saying I can't believe this is my life! I am trying so hard to maintain some sense of structure, yet it seems to escape me. All the things a person should normally be doing are hard to get done. All I am managing to get done is our laundry.
Feeling completely lost at the beginning of the week, to just plain overloaded by the end of the week. I managed to find some people to be very helpful, while others just plain rude. But I have found strength knowing that I am not alone in my situations.
Everyday I am having to run here, or run there. Talk to this person, or talk to that person. Going to physical therapy for my back, managing my pain levels, and talking with a counselor. I am so busy for someone who doesn't work!
I got to see my other grandboys. Watching them absolutely warmed my heart! I miss them so much! Seeing their faces changed my mood and gave me the extra strength I needed to continue on this journey I am facing.
Strong words of encouragement from my counselor, the love of my grandsons, a few long cries, a couple of outbursts, and I am still here to face my future head on! There are people out there who don't see the struggles that I face. There's not just one or two struggles. They are overwhelming for me at times.
I took time for myself last night and let everything else go. It felt good. I need to do it more often. I believe I was still in shock most of this week over an incident that happened during Christmas. I now find that I am able to move on from it and move forward. I still have a lot of work to do for myself, but this week I am finding the strength I need to move forward!
I am feeling better. I am smiling again....
I WILL SURVIVE!
